UPDATE: yea. everything's over. -_-    told the truth. said he forgives me but I blocked him because of the self shame. dont be like me guys :)

PLEASE CALL THE COPS ON ME AND MAKE A REPORT ABOUT ME. FIND OUT WHERE I WORK AND RUIN MY LIFE. I beg someone to please accept my request to do this. 

( Yes we are both guys and are gay ) not joking and no jokes

i broke his heart for the better. Im a piece of shit and Ive acknowledged that. This is a self dox. I know what I did was wrong and I feel dirty nasty and disgusted
at myself for what I did. I know I dont deserve love. I manipulated someone and ruined them and I wanna repent. I dont deserve anything happy in life. 
I know everything between us was real and also fake. I catfished someone and we developed real feelings for each other. I fell in love with him but he fell in love 
with my character/personality but also fell in love with the face and body of someone else I used as the catfish. 

EXPLAINATION: 
I'm in love with this guy. His name's Alex. We both love each other deeply. We've known each other for 4 years. 
But we never actually had feelings for each other until 4-5 months ago when we started talking. The thing is he doesn't know is that I catfished him.
I didn't at first because we met through a game and were friends. At one point I quit playing and stopped talking with him for a while.
Then one day I came back because one of my in person friends said he played it. I asked him to play and opened the game up again. But my friend didn't play that day.
I ended up staying on the game since its been a while and I ended up talking with Alex again. 
I started hitting on him as a joke and he also knew it was a joke and we both went along with it. 
However after some point, he developed feelings for me. While we were joking at first I sent him photos of someone I used as the catfish.
He fell in love with my words and personality but he loves the body and appearance of someone that isn't me.
After a while I developed real love feelings for him just like how he did for me. However, while talking I told many lies mixed with truths. 
I lied about my appearance, where I lived. Things like that I lied about.
He believes that I live 1 hour away from him but in reality I live less than 6 mins from him using a car. 
Which is surprising since we first met on a game. Right now I lied and told him that I would drive to him and pick him up
He's gay and has very bad family issues. He's getting kicked out and sometimes gets abused by his dad whenever he comes to visit. And because I lied to him about picking him up.
I got him kicked out. I sent photos saying that I'm on my way.
I knew what I was doing was wrong when he sent me a photo of all his stuff packed in bags outside in the cold waiting for me. 
Even though I knew I never would've went because I'm a catfish, even though my feelings are real.
Because of this, his sister called his ex to come and pick him up to let him stay with him. Sadly it became true. Alex got picked up by his ex and I've been crying and overthinking about things.
I've been trying to message him and would get small responses here and there. 
We messaged through TikTok and I saw a video he posted of him eating breakfast at McDonald's with his ex
Me and Alex developed real feelings and tell each other that even if we were to part ways then we would still miss and love each other.
I've been trying to reach out since last night and today ever since i woke up. I stayed up till 4:45am thinking about him and my body woke up at 7am like it was waiting for his response. 
He messaged me saying that he cant talk because he'll get caught and my mind started overthinking about things.
The only person that would get mad for Alex talking to me is his ex but why would he get mad if they're not even in a relationship. 
Then this is when my mind started going downhill thinking of the worst outcomes. Them sleeping together, kissing, having sex. I was torturing my mind at this point. 
Just hoping that he messages me. And Ever since today at 7am. I've been trying to hold a convo with him. He told me that he's been with his ex all morning and last night. 
Saying that his ex is looking for a job for Alex to work with him. And he even told me that his ex was looking for apartments for them. This completely shattered my heart.
He told me that him and his ex are gonna live together. He tells me that he doesn't love him like he loves me. He told me they didn't do anything sexual and that they just went out to eat. 
He keeps asking me to take him to my house but he still doesn't know the truth that I'm not the exact person I claim to be. 
I sometimes get lost in thought day dreaming that I was actually the person he thought was pretty and had a nice body with a big dick.
He keeps telling me to let him live with him but he doesn't know the truth and I know it'll completely shatter his heart and we wont ever talk again. Not as friends or anything.
I know we'll just be strangers. I asked him why he was scared to message me and he said that he doesn't want his ex to see me messaging him and he doesn't wanna argue with him. 
I asked him questions like did you guys kiss or anything like that. Did he tell you he loves you or anything like that. He responded saying no they didn't kiss but he did say that his ex loves him still.
I asked him what he said when he said that he still loves you and he told me he said nothing. I asked him if he ever thought of him or getting back with him when we talked, even if it was just once. 
He told me no and that it always been me and that is will forever be just us 2. I told him to tell him you cant have a relationship with him again and he responded to me by saying 
"Im waiting to see if ur ready thats why". He told me to come see him one day and he'll stop seeing him. Again just now he asked me to come pick him up. Telling me to please pick him up.
He sent me a tiktok of a video saying "I remember when I first noticed that you liked me back". its a song lyric  After that he sent me another one


My info: https://www.fastpeoplesearch.com/daniel-camacho_id_G-2978814118149129673 


He is beautiful, tall, funny. He is everything I could ever ask for in a partner. I never was treated kindly growing up. So i never shared true happiness with anyone. 
I mightve had friends but I never really hanged out with them that much outside of school. I was close to my uncle but he passed away. The only person that makes me
happy is Alex. I can be myself, make jokes, and act natural without having to pretend like im acting a certain way. It felt amazing. I thought to myself if this is 
what true love feels like. However I know this sadly wont come true. No matter how much I beg him or GOD to make this come true
I know that after today he'll know the truth and block me and hate me and wish that he never met me and wish that I died. And i understand that and I know I deserve it. 
im sorry. If theres an after life please hope to never meet me again. Im sorry for the pain I caused you

Face of the beautiful boy that I manipulated, deceived, and broke emotionally and mentally: 
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/979207641127604234/1310371279676637254/IMG_5234.jpg?ex=6744f9da&is=6743a85a&hm=7d4dc28010d2ec6c2ebd4185c8bc055bf9a7d710f5526ae156fec38f50b9ed58&
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/979207641127604234/1310371279395885117/6F767A7C-CDAD-479D-A585-367397081423.jpg?ex=6744f9da&is=6743a85a&hm=caf7b77d6c35c1a36335caaca316de4b60fb383f7da4d1b5f40fadf22b9541f3&
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/979207641127604234/1310371279156678766/IMG_5296.jpg?ex=6744f9da&is=6743a85a&hm=666d1867153fe5f7f1ec2ff8ba722e2d9388cf23f89cded01bcb85f606d8a539&
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/979207641127604234/1310371278871597076/IMG_4893.jpg?ex=6744f9da&is=6743a85a&hm=03fba3665d4cf8a4bcd0554d11e821637ab77ec8a2727964784d1f7a8e89030e&
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/979207641127604234/1310370841308958720/IMG_5288.jpg?ex=6744f972&is=6743a7f2&hm=560762cb5f658588567dff07bb8dabf476996ea2f213df170b4b68df2f86e366&

may he find true love because he deserves it. 
Message me on discord if you have anything to say to me. My display name is Cj and my username is ligma025817